Article VIII.        The true history of my involvement in Socialist Alliance

Section 1.01    First meeting and Resistance adoption July 2006

1.                  In July 2006 comrade Farida Iqbal, comrade Melissa Hughes who introduced myself to Comrade Rachel Lorraine Evans, where we all first let at a Queer Collaborations Conference in Paddington.While true Rachel Evans was the National Union of Students Queer Officer and I was the University of Western Sydney Students Association (UWSSA) Penrith Queer Officer that is not why we met or started working together. The four of us adopted each other as part of Resistance. The reason it happened was cause of what I saw Socialist Alternative doing at that conference. I saw the leader Liam encouraging her socialists to alienate queers from the capacity to communicate by whatever they deemed queers did as a sin and also saw them not want Socialist Alliance and harass queers to join themeven if they didn’t agree with their politics. I saw comrades not do that. I saw comrades regardless of whether someone was socialist or not encouraging people to unite together to organise campaigns and finding solutions to resolve problems and not blaming when a mistake happens continually working together to find a solution to resolve a mistake. I saw comrades working tirelessly to try and help people come together to organise campaigns rather than agonise about untrue “Mérida”. Compared to Liam Rachel taught her queer comrades that there was no blame in politics, just solutions. What did it for me apart from the fact that at the time Socialist Alternative scared me at the time was the fundamental fact that Socialist Alternative not want Socialist Alliance or Resistance at the time so even though they wanted me and I adopted Socialist Alliance beginning with Resistance cause I knew what it was like to not be wanted for simply being born by my father, that’s what clinched it for me to adopt Socialist Alliance via Resistance at the conference. That’s why we started working closely together. Yet also because our attraction toeach other’s political mind driven by a revolutionary heart and noteach other’ssexual body. The student union was just one of our interventions to help students organise grassroots political human rights campaigns to fight for their lives as part of the ongoing struggle to win a revolution the people want to win their freedom from this system. Farida had told me I already am a revolutionary of the party. We were all involved in the struggle to organise a united grass roots political human rights campaign to Stop Voluntary Student Unionism (VSU). Farida gave me a book that is given to all new comrades who join called "What Resistance Stands for" by Resistance Books. It has a particular reference for further reading about Marx strategy for leaders to help those they deem to have an articulation problem to overcome the alienation from the capacity to communicate. I learned this when I did my Introduction to Socialism classes with Rupen Savalon and Fred Frentes from Education for Socialists classes volume 1 another good book we use in practice from Resistance Books. After I came back from Queer collaborations, Jason Markwick our student advocacy worker at UWSSA said to me, "I heard you’re out of the closet now about being a revolutionary now and signed up to Resistance, congratulations." I asked him, "How do you know?" He told me "I have my ways." I responded, "We'll we have our ways too.” 

Section 1.02    CAAH adoption August 2006

2.                   In August 2006 we organised queers from UWS to go to the National Day of Action for Marriage Equality.  I adopted CAAH and they adopted me for us to unite together to organise the Equal Marriage Campaign. LGBTI people join political groups like CAAH not to pursue personal sexual relations with leaders within our groups. LGBTI people join these political groups like CAAH and Equal Love whether as a couple, individuals or come as part of another groupbecause leaders within our groups teach queers that when leaders make decisions about our lives in parliament to make people’s lives illegal without our consent or consulting us that we don’t have to accept it with the only escape from homophobic violence created by these laws is death. Back then it was called Repeal the Ban on Same Sex Marriage. The name was changed to Marriage Equality from 2009 for the inclusive human and legal rights of all the sex and gender diverse community which is a common sense issue of civil equal human rights and so is this. That is not a conscience vote or a matter of beliefs or morals.

Section 1.03    “I love you” words mean politically “love of the living humanity” which is a revolutionary advance and is not a personal unwanted or wanted sexual advance. Here is Chef Guevara’s definition.

3.                  The words I love you means Love of the living humanity as defined by Che Guevara. A common argument from the mouths of capitalist thinkers define the words “I love you” as a personal sexual advance between a sexual partnership and their immediate family to the exclusion of all other people. Hallmark has made billions of heterosexual and pink dollars from the propaganda lie campaign every valentine’s day.  This is Che Guevara’s definition of the words I love you I was trying to say.

4.                  At the risk of seeming ridiculous, let me say that the true revolutionary is guided by great feelings of love. It is impossible to think of a genuine revolutionary lacking this quality. Perhaps it is one of the great dramas of the leader that they must combine a passionate spirit with a cold intelligence and make painful decisions without flinching. Our vanguard revolutionaries must idealize this love of the people, of the most sacred causes, and make it one and indivisible. They cannot descend, with small doses of daily affection, to the level where ordinary people put their love into practice.

5.                  The leaders of the revolution have children just beginning to talk, who are not just learning to say the names of their parents or their siblings their family and friends, should be encouraged and included to be part of the general sacrifice of their lives in order to take the revolution to its destiny. The circle of their friends is limited strictly to the circle of comrades in the revolution. There is no life outside of it.

6.                  In these circumstances one must have a large dose of humanity, a large dose of a sense of justice and truth in order to avoid dogmatic extremes, cold scholasticism, or isolation from the masses. We must strive every day so that this love of living humanity is transformed into actual deeds, into acts that serve as examples, as a moving force.

7.                  The revolutionary, the ideological motor force of the revolution within the party, is consumed by this uninterrupted activity that comes to an end only with death, unless the construction of socialism is accomplished on a world scale. If one's revolutionary zeal is blunted when the most urgent tasks have been accomplished on a local scale and one forgets about proletarian internationalism, the revolution one leads will cease to be a driving force and sink into a comfortable drowsiness that imperialism, our irreconcilable enemy, will utilize to gain ground. Proletarian internationalism is a duty, but it is also a revolutionary necessity. This is the way we educate our people.

Section 1.04    Addressing the first false allegation that was used to implement the APVO.

1.                  The Socialist Alliance policy on LGBTI states to legislate to stop the use of “Nonviolent homosexual provocation as a defence in violence cases.” Socialist Alliance also has a firm stance of leaders not using the guilt fix method over new comrades as defined in pages 76-78 of the Organisational Principles and Methods of the Democratic Socialist Party. While we resigned from the name and merged into the Socialist Alliance and while we are in the process of updating our books that will remember to include all history and not just parts Socialist Alliance didn’t resign from its core organisational principles and methods.Rachel Evans and Alex Bainbridge from November 2007 used their position of power and authority over me by use of the guilt fix method combined with place and communication restrictions in order to put pressure on me to gain a confession to a hidden agenda because doubting leaders seemed to find it hard one can be so genuine and not have a hidden agenda.  The APVO also contradicts the Commonwealth Crimes Torture Act 1988 which is in the process of being amended by the Commonwealth Crimes Legislation Act Amendment (TORTURE PROHIBITION AND DEATH PENALTY ABOLITION) BILL 2009 [100%]

2.                  The APVO created a false history about me in order to bury the truth. The only thing I can confess to be the truth.

3.                  In September of 2006 to present me made revolutionary political advances not unwanted personal sexual advances with Rachel Evans. The words I love you which means politically love of the living humanity which is revolutionary political love as defined by Che Guevara. It is also sexual assault by APVO to refuse to accept no means no to unwanted personal sexual advances. Simply because one rebels and refuses to accept an APVO to fight for a just cause such as Socialist Alliance and CAAH to continue to come work to unite with the majority to help organise political campaigns with their people to fight for human life as an important part of the revolutionary struggle for real justice and freedom for everyone from this system even though someone with power and authority over you tells you not to because they don’t want our people or the court to know the truth is not proof ofunwanted homosexual advance, stalking or obsession. I faced being locked up if I come to court and I faced being locked up if I didn’t come to court under this APVO with the police continual insistence to gain a confession to a hidden agenda I never had with Rachel Evans because honourable police can’t seem to get it into their head just like some Honourable leaders and some Honourable magistrates and some Honourable judges and some honourable lawyers can’t seem to get it into their head I am genuine and I don’t come with hidden agendas. It is an insult, torture, bastardisation to all the time and effort all comrades put into training me. It is sexual assault to refuse to accept revolutionary advances are not unwanted personal sexual advances. It has been homosexual assault by APVO of me to have argued nonviolent homosexual provocation as a defence for a violence case on me since November 2007 using Rachel Evans power and authority over me now without hers or my consent. If Rachel had wanted it extended then she would have applied for it herself through the court like she did with the original APVO. She was under obligation by the court to report any alleged breach. That is not proof a person wants the order extended. Just because someone wants a legal order in the past doesn’t mean they necessarily want it today and she is under obligation to help the prosecution to build their case even if she doesn’t want to. I dare say they most likely would have never advised her she could revoke it at any time and was under no pressure or obligation to help the prosecution build their case or that she could go through a community justice centre for mediation to occur that has never been ordered by any court before any court order is put in place. LGBTI and our allied socialists don’t join or adopt our vanguard and political groups and individuals to pursue personal sexual relations with leaders. We commit Socialist Alliance acts to organise political human rights campaigns to win human equality such as community action against homophobia not just for ourselves but for everyone as an important part of the revolutionary struggle.   Get your mind out of the gutter because this is what happened.

Section 1.05    Socialist Alliance adoption September 2006.

4.                  We were organising Pride week at UWS to help the UWS queer collective to politically come out of the closet to unite to organise a political grass roots human rights campaign to repeal all sex and gender diverse laws prejudicial laws at UWS that was to take place the week of the 23rd of September 2006. We were receiving a lot of homophobic slanderous verbal violence on our posters. We invited everyone including comrades and CAAH to come and help defeat it. Farida had invited me to start attending CAAH meetings. Rachel was the first to respond who followed me with comrades and CAAH to western Sydney. Rachel called me comrade every 5 minutes and listened to the revolutionary struggle about stopping VSU with an active organised grass roots campaign that queer students wanted despite discouragement from Danni Barley and Luke Fomiatti. Dani and Luke were both proven wrong that socialism supporting queers and our allies of both workers and students to put power in the hands of the majority of the people especially the poor doesn't scare people away it brings people in and means true freedom, justice, democracy. The guilt fix method is what scares people away because it destroys political unity and the fight human life and doesn’t rehabilitate people. Pride week successfully launched the UWS Ally anti-homophobia network so future queer officers wouldn't have to do welfare or security and could concentrate on organising grassroots political equal human rights campaigns for what students and workers wanted to fight for. Rachel Evans told me on Kingwood campus outside the library it was the best Pride week she had ever seen organised.

5.                  Rachel Evans gave me two books a blue one and a white one. The blue one was called "How to make a Revolution by Peter Camajo and a white book called "Resistance Youth Manifesto" from Resistance Books." She then spun me a line about joining to support her socialist alliance election campaign. I told her, "How long did it take you to work I’m a revolutionary? Here." I passed her an already signed and joined up membership adoption card, as well as our financial dues and said while she was still talking, "Here Comrade, just take it. You don't need to spin me a line comrade; I already am one in case you hadn't noticed. I just need to be given a go." I have attached the thankyou letter I sent out to everyone who came to Pride week as well as the article I wrote for the Onion about it. Rachel was the first to respond who told me she had been trying to contact me, but Rachel was in communication less land at the time. I have attached a copy of this.

6.                  Rachel E grrrach@yahoo.com to me

7.                  show details 08/09/2006

8.                  yo !

9.                  Tis Rach. Have been wanting to ring you and give you numbers for who is coming to your Pride Wk. But my mobile got drowned and works no longer. And in Newcastle till Sat morning...

10.              Will call you Sat afternoon after I ring some of the inner city people and find out details of numbers.

11.              Hope CAAH mtg was good. Haven't been able to ring Simon and find out how it went either.

12.              In communicationless land

13.              Comradely,

14.              Rach

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15.              Shelly Dahl <shiverstess@gmail.com> wrote:

16.              On 9/1/06, Shelly Dahl <shiverstess@gmail.com > wrote:

17.              Hi all

18.              Thank you for supporting our Pride week. Below is the timetabled schedule of events for Pride week with room locations etc. For those who are speaking, entertaining etc? I have also enclosed the running order this as well at the bottom of the page. For those who have not met me in person yet I will be wearing a pink banana & a black homophobes r gay t-shirt and can contact me on my mobile if they get lost. Thank you to everyone who will be coming and feel free to enjoy any of our other scheduled events during the week. We look forward to your company & hope Pride week 06 will be our best!!

19.              CAMPUSDAY TIME EVENT HOST CONTACT LOCATION

20.              OFF CAMPUS Saturday 9 7pm 4Play Chris Parramatta Club 37 Norton St Parramatta

21.              Werrington Campus Monday 11 10am – 11:30am  Combating Homophobia Anti Violence Project Shelly  The Closet Behind the Cottage BNG09 Werrington Sth

22.              12pm – 2pm  Drags On The BBQ Bands &Speak outs Miss UWSSA 2006 UWSCAN   & CAAH Shelly Thomas Behind Building BB Werrington Sth

23.              2:30-3:30pm Lesbian Sexual Health  ACON Shelly  The Closet Behind the Cottage BNG09 Werrington Sth

24.              4pmFilm Screening The Bouncing Castle P FLAG Shelly  WS-BJ117 

25.              Kingswood Campus Tuesday 12 10am – 11:30am Equality Workshop  Gay & Lesbian Rights Lobby Shelly  K-K117

26.              12pm – 2pm Drags On The BBQ Bands &Speak outs Miss UWSSA 2006 UWSCAN   & CAAH Shelly Thomas Outside UWSSA office Building N Kingswood campus

27.              4pmFilm Screening Penrith Queer Officer Shelly  K-P124

28.              OFF CAMPUS 8pm  Bingay  Chris The Imperial Hotel 35 Erskineville Road Erskineville 

29.              Campbelltown Campus Wednesday 13 12pm – 2pm Drags On The BBQ Bands &Speak outs Miss UWSSA 2006 UWSCAN   & CAAH Chris Thomas BJs /Memorial Park Campbelltown campus

30.              Bankstown Campus Thursday 14 12pm – 2pm Drags On The BBQ Bands &Speak outs Miss UWSSA 2006 UWSCAN   & CAAH Chris Shelly Thomas Outside UWSSA office Front of Building 1 Bankstown campus

31.              OFF CAMPUS Saturday 16 12noon Queers in the Park (Bus departs from Penrith & Parramatta Campus Time TBA) Divertuality Chris Parramatta Park

32.              Parramatta Campus Monday 18 12pm – 2pm Drags On The BBQ Bands &Speak outs Miss UWSSA 2006 UWSCAN   & CAAH Chris Shelly Thomas Outside UWSSA office Front of library/Exit of if raining Parramatta campus

33.              OFF CAMPUS 7pmTen Pin Bowling  ChrisAMF 1-20 Cowper St Harris Park

34.              OFF CAMPUS Tuesday 19 7pmKaraoke  Chris Stonewall Oxford St Darlinghurst

35.              OFF CAMPUS Saturday 23 7pm4Play  Chris Parramatta Club 37 Norton St Parramatta

36.              Running order for during Drags on the BBQ

37.              12noon acknowledgement of aboriginal people

38.              12:10pm Bands/DJ

39.              12:40pm Speakers

40.              1pm Bands/DJ

41.              1:20pmSpeakers

42.              1:40pm Bands/DJ

43.              2pm Wrap up

44.              Regards

Section 1.06    When the accusation of unwanted sexual advances combined with the guilt fix method was first made by Rachel Evans and what I did in response

45.              In October 2006 after Pride week I told all comrades that I loved them and had told Rachel she was a cheeky revolutionary after learning the secret to where talking Socialist Alliance politics comes from, when she was the first to respond. Rachel had told me she was very flattered but had a girlfriend. No! The words I love you that the poor say to each other all the time is not a personal sexual advance. That’s not what the words I love you mean from genuine revolutionaries I thought. How am I supposed to learn how to talk politics and be understood and listened to and taken seriously or develop any self-confidence within organisingif Rachel Evans an experienced revolutionary leader can’t explain what revolutionaries are driven byand just professes to be the true interpreter of what a new comrade learning to talk politics means from their own experience what they’ve already been doing for years before finally being recognised and accepted as a revolutionary by their own party they’ve been looking and fighting for their whole life and a queer activist organiser by their CAAH people if what they have said in underdeveloped language is confused as something personal, untrue and completely the opposite of what their trying to say instead of as something political? So I tried to explain it to her as best as I could what I meant, without knowledge that Che Guevarahad a political definition of exactly what I was experiencing and trying to tell comrades and CAAH beginning with Rachel that I haven’t stopped experiencing ever since both via text message and to her face at the Latin American Conference. It would have eliminated confusion if I had known about Che Guevara’s 50 year old speech “Socialism and Man in Cuba” that just needs to be updated to “Socialism and Human in Australia.” Instead of having to spend the last four years having to do it myself with lack of guidance in trying to write this speech as a result of the APVO because a few leaders didn’t listen to the solution to the warnings since November 2007. Anyway because I thought Rachel and comrade leaders had all the answers and new everything about every human rights struggle and that there was method in Rachel’s madness in not giving me Che Guevara’s political explanation of the words “I love you.” in being the first lesbian comrade who didn’t want one with her I told her what she had told Farida and Mel who did want one with her when they first met Rachel. I just told Rachel the truthof what I meant by the words, “I love you.” I said, “I don't want a personal sexual relationship with you, comrade. I want you to be my mentor to guide me into the party and through the struggle to helping people win a revolution.”   Rachel Evans promised me, “That’s okay matey.” “We can help you with that.” “You will never have to organise without your revolutionaries now that you have found us.” I had also asked where had comrades been when I was growing up and needed them and why did it take so long to find them. She told me well back then in Australia the party was just being born like I was and didn’t really exist as it wasn’t really out of the closet like it is today, so the task for unknown and underdeveloped revolutionaries finding the vanguard was with great difficulty.  She had agreed to be our mentor besides our comrade and gave me a big hug. Promised me everything was going to be okay. Promised me oranges and sunshine. Promised me I would never be without comrades ever again and then we all went and had lunch together. Lots of comrades came to meet me invited me to come and help with everything after that, that I never refused to this day regardless of whether Rachel was there in person or not.

Section 1.07    Rachel’s insistence of me to make text announcements and remain under her authority.

46.              From September 2006 Rachel then began to have more physical contact with me after adopting me into the Socialist Alliance and comrades never questioned her putting me under her power and authority. They never questioned her also putting me under Simon Cunich’s power and authority for Resistance. Rachel was the one who followed me around to every political intervention. In that period Rachel would call me once a day either to check up on me or ask me to this or that political eventeven if I was already going she’d ask me anyway. Rachel was the one who would text me two or three times a day and insisted I kept an up to date contact list. She insisted I text people about upcoming political events and organising meetings. At the time I didn’t think there was anything wrong with texting about upcoming events because I did whatever Rachel told me to do. I didn’t think there was anything wrong with being under her power and authority. I never questioned it. All my reporting to the party, Green Left Weekly articles, political talks every piece of writing, every political organisational intervention, before I did or said anything she insisted it went through her. It was from about the time of party school but especially after the SRC happened she insisted my circle of friends was strictly comrades and CAAH. Rachel would constantly tell me there was no life outside of the party. It would be over her dead body if I went near the SRC or spoke to anyone from the SRC. I was not permitted any time to grieve over the SRC; or help organise a campaign to fight for the student union like the students wanted me to do. If I spoke even once about the SRC or about the struggle for the rights of the white stolen generation that had come out of the closet after the SRC happened Rachel would get angry at me and say what did I say no SRC. Rachel Restricted my activity to Resistance and CAAH with no life permitted outside of that task.  Rachel would not permit me to speak out at rallies even if the collective wanted me to. I was only permitted to give political discussions internally. She told me that this was because I had an articulation problem. Well Che had an articulation problem but that never stopped him from writing Socialism and Man in Cuba t.This pattern continued until November 2007.

47.              I found myself having to constantlyspend hours trying to meet her standards in relation to political communication with the hope she would let us speak out in public while my personal life suffered in relation to studies, home, sleep, eating, a stable income or having a girlfriend with Mel or friends outside of that or needing time to recover from a traumatic event that resulted in a Nervous breakdown by November 2007. I would spend hours rewriting and rewriting before I would give it to her to check when the first versions I wrote were fine. I never had that problem at university or TAFE or Highschool or primary school. I always got above average or “too high standard to mark”. The only grade I never got a high mark in was Phys Ed. I was lucky if I was able to catch a ball, was scared of any bat and would refuse to pick up even a soft plastic cricket bat because I was worried I might hit someone over the head. Was only a fast runner to escape the bullies rather than fighting with them. Competition sport I hated it.

48.              The following is a calendar of events.

Section 1.08    October to December 2006

49.              October 2006 to December 2006 Introduction to Socialism classes and Introduction to Marxism and Introduction to the DSP now merged into SA classes with Rupen, Fred, Graham and Alex. Rachel gave me the book, Socialism and the struggle for the rights of lesbians and gay men another good Book from Resistance

50.              NSW state Socialist Alliance election campaign.

51.              The Western Sydney Activist Centre we successfully revived from the dead despite misconceptions from a minority it would fail. Did weekly stalls everywhere.

52.              CAAH supported my idea to call on heterosexual couples to commit to not commit to marriage until queers win marriage rights. Idea had come from Angelina Aeolian

53.              Got involved in Stop the war.

54.              We went to a lot of workers picket lines from supporting the Esselte workers to fight for his workplace to give Barry back his job to Stopping Work choices. Some individual comrade leaders would tell me I was spending too much time going to too many workers pickets. Yet I loved starting my day bright and early every morning to go with comrades and allies and to support the workers on the picket line fighting for their jobs back because you have so much energy to get so much revolutionary work done from the time our office opened which wasn’t until 10am. I like people forming unions to organise campaigns with the inclusion of others

55.              Queer Spaces in Canberra, Rachel asked me to organise the car. Attached is our picture of Farida, Minky, Rachel and myself. There is physical contact.

56.              Walk Against Warming. Record Green Left Weekly distribution was made.

57.              Adopted as provisionally of DSP was told by female Viv from central was I was considered very special by the party. Never figured out why. Rachel kept telling me to go to bed and wear socks. Asked her to stop interrupting revolutionary activity hasgot to get work done for comrades, CAAH, UWSSA and the people had asked us to do.

58.              Elected to the party west exec/Resistance Exec. Required to do regular reports with Rachel and Simon Cunich and Farida checking them. Update contact lists and send out announcements about upcoming events.

59.              Work choices rally. Attached are photos of all of us comrades and CAAH people.

60.              G20. We queers organised banner drop to launch the rally before over 3500people despite concerns from a few others couldn't pull it off put but we did. Attached are our photos.

61.              Rachel E grrrach@yahoo.com to Simon, Suture, Neil, me

62.              show details 27/11/2006

63.              you wanna cum to this? U are most welcome. Me and Farida to give the history of homophobia talk

64.              lv in the struggle,

65.              Rachel Evans

66.              Fightback, Resistance & Liberation

67.              IDEAS TO CHANGE THE WORLD

68.              2007 Socialist Summer School

69.              JANUARY 4-7, SYDNEY UNIVERSITY

70.              Plenaries and workshops include: The Origins of Homophobia, Queer History and Current Stage of Queer Rights, Climate Change & Capitalism, Women Race & Class, Applying Marxism Today, Palestine Israel & Imperialism, Lessons from the Bolsheviks, The Unfolding Revolution in Latin America, Rebuilding Fighting Unions in Australia, The rise of Political Islam, Australian Imperialism.

71.              Presented by the Democratic Socialist Perspective & Resistance

72.              www.dsp.org. au      www.resistance. org.au

73.              For info: call (02) 9690 1230 or 0408 702 996 or email dsp@dsp.org. au

74.              The DSP is a revolutionary socialist organisation, affiliated to the Socialist Alliance. We believe that fundamental social change can only come through the power of working people exercised on the streets, the campuses and the workplace. We support the struggles of the people’s movements across the world, from Venezuela to Palestine.We work with Resistance socialist youth organisation to build the movement for change here in Australia.

75.              __._,_.___

76.              UWSSA elections cross campus queer officer.  Simon Taylor and Dani had pulled out of the SRC simply because they thought UWSSA was lost simply because Phil Rigg was nominated instead of Simon Taylor for the Presidency which left the src intervention all on my shoulders. Simon and Dani had abandoned the fight to keep the union independent from the uni bureaucracy with grassroots campaigns the students wanted to fight for. 

77.              Rachel had asked me to step forward for CAAH co convenor as she was very worried about CAAH and I was elected CAAH co convenor. Attached is the reference Rachel wrote in Nov 2007 about the work we did since we started in CAAH.

78.              Orphans Christmas

79.              Motohar Hussein queer Bangladeshi queer refugee we freed from Villawood we drove to Canberra to fight from his work and study.

Section 1.09    January 2007 party school

80.              January 07 Summer school national conference. Melissa Hughes had asked me to be her girlfriend. Party school. No life was permitted outside of it for three weeks. Luke Stalin Fomiatti had organised Chris Pap to be physically and sexually assaulted in his student residence to have him removed from the SRC because he had ran has an independent candidate that had resulted in a double ticket. It was incredibly upsetting to all of us, we wanted justice for Chris. Rachel became an incredibly strict parent during that period. Luke was proposing to sack workers using VSU as an excuse. The party had made no decision to pull out of the src at that stage as the only fight you lose is the one you abandon.

Section 1.10        APVO contradicts Section 51 Commonwealth Constitution Act of the implied rights of political communication. February 2007 Fair Day

81.               The biggest reason I will never accept this APVO is the fundamental fact it uses leaders from our people CAAH and Socialist Alliance to contradict our groups to attempt to shut down organised political human rights campaigning such as for Equal marriage rights without trial or hearing of the appeal. Anyone involved in the revolutionary struggle as well as the general public agrees that there is no justice in that. Victims have the right to trial their own accused, yet more harm than good is being done with an APVO which uses a leaders power and authority over a person to make it a criminal act to unite with the majority in organised political human rights campaigning. Police and leaders don’t have the right to use leaders to implement APVO power and authority over people to try to shut down and hold people a prisoner to treat people as illegal for exercising their democratic right to unite with the majority in organised political human rights campaigning to fight for human life. Hard to accept considering Rachel Evans prior to the APVO was always the first one to defend all us queers from police harassment as she did when New Mardi Gras called the cops on our equal marriage banner in February 2007. The APVO contradicts Commonwealth law as defined by Section 109 of the Commonwealth Constitution Act regarding the implied right to political protest including political communication under Section 51 of the Commonwealth Constitution Act. CAAH carried a banner down to the see of hearts and New Mardi Gras called the police on us for exercising freedom of speech in support of equal marriage rights. Below the photowere the CAAH media release and also the Green left article which was accurate. The photo of course doesn’t lie in that you will also notice the bundle of Green Left weeklies I have under my arms that the majority of all comrades carry at least one copy with us at all times while we all defended the right to communicate together the equal marriage campaign.

Section 1.11    Police called on anti-homophobia activists

Saturday, February 24, 2007 - 11:00

By Rachel Evans, Sydney

New Mardi Gras organisers called police to Community Action Against Homophobia's (CAAH) peaceful banner action at Fair Day on February 18. Fair Day is the annual lesbian, gay, bi-sexual; transgender and intersex (LGBTI) picnic in Sydney's massive Mardi Gras calendar.

Mardi Gras arose out of a march against homophobia in 1978 that was brutally repressed by police, who beat protesters, and jailed and tortured some of them in police cells. The police repression fuelled Australia's gay and lesbian rights movement and led to the annual Mardi Gras month of activities.

Therefore, this year, when New Mardi Gras called police onto CAAH's "Civil union and marriage rights now!" banner, LGBTI rights campaigning were dealt a blow.

Activists from QueerRuption were similarly censored when they handed out "unauthorised" anti-war leaflets at the picnic three years ago. Pink Sofa, a lesbian internet-dating site, was refused a stall this year because GayDar, another gay/lesbian internet site, paid New Mardi Gras to block their "competitors". Fed up with the corporate nature of Fair Day, some queer activists this year organised an alternative festival in another park.

CAAH explained in a media release after the event, "We walked around the park to profile civil union and marriage issues, and ended up at the New South Wales Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby [GLRL] Sea of Hearts event. Ten New Mardi Gras security guards surrounded CAAH activists holding the banner at the Sea of Hearts.

"The security guard in charge accused one CAAH activist of assaulting her and aggressively told CAAH they were not allowed to be in the Sea of Hearts space. CAAH was told security would lay charges against the CAAH activist for assault if CAAH did not move their banner." The security guards then called the police, who instructed the activists to move the banner on.

Simon Biber, a convener of CAAH, said, "We were shocked and appalled that the New South Wales Lobby did not even look at us when the police were abusing us". Shelly Dahl, another CAAH convener, added, "These organisations that purport to stand up for our rights need to apologise to CAAH and promise the community that they will never call police onto LGBTI activists again."

Biber noted, "When the government and strangers are beating up on us in parliament, in the media and in the streets, shouldn't we be striving for more unity, not less? Calling cops onto us ... just plays into Howard and company's hands."

CAAH is asking people to protest against the police being used against activists by contacting New Mardi Gras on (02) 9568 8600, and the GLRL on (02) 9360 6650 or <maleconvenor@glrl.org.au >.

[Rachel Evans is an upper house candidate for the Socialist Alliance in the March 24 NSW election.]

From GLW issue 700

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82.               

83.              19 February 2007 16:28

84.              subject

85.              New Mardi Gras calls Police on Community orgs

86.              hide details 19/02/2007

87.              COMMUNITY ACTION AGAINST HOMOPHOBIA

88.              MEDIA RELEASE

89.              Monday 19 February 2007

90.              New Mardi Gras calls police onto Community Action Against Homophobia

91.              UWSSA Queer Collective at Fair Day.

92.              New Mardi Gras called police onto Community Action Against Homophobia's (CAAH) peaceful banner action at Fair Day on 18^th February. CAAH holding a "civil union and marriage rights now" banner walked around the park to profile these issues ending up at the New South Wales Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby Sea of Hearts event. Ten New Mardi Gras security guards surrounded CAAH activists holding thebanner at the Sea of Hearts.

93.              The security guard in charge accused one CAAH activist of assaulting her. Then aggressively told CAAH they were not allowed to be in the Sea of Hearts space. CAAH was then told security would lay charges against the CAAH activist for assault if CAAH did not move their banner. When activists continued to hold the banner and talk about what to do in the face of such unexpected vitriol, security threatened to take the CAAH and UWSSA stall down as well as call the police.

94.              Mardi Gras security did call the police and ten police turned up, surrounded the CAAH banner and asked CAAH to move the banner on.

95.               "It's ironic that the first Mardi Gras was shut down by police," said Simon Biber CAAH Co Convenor. Now this Mardi Gras uses police against activists trying to get concrete about government homophobia. We were shocked and appalled that the New South Wales Lobby did not even look at us when the police were abusing us."

96.               "What is it about these demands that New Mardi Gras and the NSW Lobby fear?" said Shelly Dahl, University of Western Sydney Student Association Co Cross Campus Queer Officer & acting Co-CAAH Convenor. "We walked around Victoria Park, stopped with the banner and people in the crowd cheered. No one from New Mardi Gras security stopped us walking around the park. It seemed that it was only the Sea of Hearts event that "marriage and civil union’s rights" needed policing, censoring and shutting down. These organisations that purport to stand up for our rights need to apologise to CAAH as well as UWSSA queer collective  and promise to the community they will never call police onto lesbian, gay, bi-sexual, transgender and intersex (LGBTI)

activists.”

97.              Simon Biber noted that "It seems these organisations need to be reminded that Australia is an international disgrace. Howard recently promised to ban a measly civil partnership law in the ACT and recognition of same-sex adoption from overseas. This is following on from banning civil unions and marriage. When the government and strangers are beating up on us in Parliament, the media and in the streets shouldn't we be striving for more unity and clarity – not less? Calling cops onto us, refusing to support CAAH rallies, marches and snap actions just plays into Howard and company's hands."

98.              "The first Mardi Gras was a protest and we were harassed by police then," said Kayliegh Henderson UWSSA Co-Cross Campus Queer Officer. "16 years onwards we're still being hassled. Yet we never expect this type of treatment from the organisers of our own annual protest. The government needs to wake up and realise its ok to be gay."

99.              CAAH & UWSSA Queer Collective calls on the community to email New Mardi Gras and the Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby to register your complaint at police being used against activists at Mardi Gras events.

100.          New Mardi Gras  - phone 02 9568 8600

101.          Gay and Lesbian Rights Lobby NSW

102.          maleconvenor@glrl.org.au

103.          (02) 9360 6650

104.          Call Simon Biber 0425 208 363 or Shelly Dahl 0418 621 769 for more

105.          info www.caah.org

106.          --

107.          Shelly Dahl

108.          UWS Cross Campus Queer Officer

109.          Email: shiverstess@gmail.com

110.          M: 0418 621 769

111.          F: 02) 4736 0676

112.          February to May 07 Mardi Gras SAsexuality float, CAAH/UWSqueer float CAAH adopted my slogan "Equal love, Equal Marriage, Equal World" as the name of the float. The name "Equal Marriage" ended up being an unconscious prediction of where the campaign was headed two years ahead of its time. We just needed to pull the hills hoist out of CAAHs heart Simon Margin had put there, because he didn't listen. Simon Margin had verbally abused me while I was tying the CAAH Equal marriage banner of freedom to the truck as CAAH had asked me to do. I had asked him calmly, I know your tired because you spent all night working on the float but to stop abusing me, simply cause he didn't listen to CAAH to not to put a hills hoist in CAAHs heart as it would be too heavy to lift. He had gone to hit me and I was scared as flashbacks of my father hitting us and blaming it all on us after he stole us from my mum before he removed us from the state ran through my mind from childhood. Allan Priestly intervened. Rachel watched. Mardi Gras had been successful.

Section 1.12    Predictions for 2007

113.          Luke sacked both Edith and Jason. We had helped their PSU union intervene. Around 20 student reps resigned in disgust over Luke sacking the workers. Removing the people’s Resistance to lobbying to continue to campaign was his next target.

114.          Had predicted the Howard Government were going to ban overseas same sex adoption and that we needed to let the nation know. Farida didn't believe me.

Section 1.13    Solutions to the warnings listened to for the NDA. Solutions to the warnings ignored for the SRC.

115.          Course Cuts Campaign students wanted to organise would help student union. Student union endorsed campaign but Luke threatened to sack student reps and workers including Phil the President if they turned up. There was no time to wait we had two campaigns both for the workers and the students as well as the course cuts campaign cause Luke was sacking workers and putting pressure on political active student union organisers to quit.

116.          Full party adoption. Rachel had to fight for it because Alex was stonewalling on it because he didn't think I was ready. Rachel's ALP girlfriend had broken up with her. She was naturally upset.

117.          Resistance stalls at O week. We also did regular mosks in Parramatta and Auburn that Rachel insisted I go with her to do.

118.          Free David Hicks rally

119.          We organised CAAH's first IDAHO.

120.          Winter Solstice in the Blue Mountains.

121.          What am about to say I will most likely be punished by Rachel for going over power and authority because Rachel told me never to speak out about what happened in the SRC, but that was Rachel’s decision and not the party's or CAAH's decision. Luke threatened disciplinary action on Resistance because grassroots campaigning to help the union fight for life and survive VSU threatened his Lobbying interests for more money. Rachel helped respond. We had called for an emergency meeting with all students. Rachel didn't believe Graham and I, Luke was going to violate queer autonomy to do what he was going to do.

122.          Kayliegh Henderson had ringed telling me Luke was planning to remove Resistance. The four queer officers didn't turn up to the emergency meeting.

123.          Course cuts campaign ends in Resistance queer officer sacking. The four UWS queer leaders had broken queer autonomy and had been meeting with Luke in secret. The queer leaders didn't even seem to realise what they were doing and they’re statements weren't even true or even accurate. I had told Luke if he was going to do it than at least have the guts. Luke Stalin Fomiatti proposed the motion. Phil didn't want to do it but the UWS queer leaders had lied and said it was a queer collective decision, but I had said no it wasn't because the majority of queers hadn't even been told when I called them. Phil didn't listen and raised his hand crying doing something he didn't want to do because queer autonomy even though it had already been violated and instead of deferring it back to the queer collective he didn't want to break queer autonomy. Rachel had told me to help students put posters up at UWS and left angry. I wanted to go to the Resistance centre and cry on comrade’s shoulders to work out what to do. It was like my father had done the enormous cruelty again. Another 20 or so followed Resistance resigning in disgust. Rachel had told me it was no failure. Alex had told me it was a failure. The LPF now RSP didn't listen to stop blaming Resistance. I wanted Global Justice.

124.          Farida went with me in a joint meeting with NUS queer and the UWS Queer collective. Luke Stalin Fomiatti stood right outside the door along with Phil. UWS intervened to help restore queer collective autonomy which had been broken to enable Resistance and UWS queer collective to work together. Rachel wasn't on NUS that year.

125.          Alex and Simon Cunich from Central decided Western Sydney shouldn’t intervene in the UWS student union anymore. Rachel and Alex composed a statement I was told to send. Rachel had told me it would be over her dead body before she would let us go back to into the SRC. Green Left Weekly was still in UWSSA. Rachel gave me a gag order to not talk about the SRC and told me I had an articulation problem as to why her and Farida wasn't letting the collectives nominate us to speak out at rallies as they had wanted us to since the SRC.  Is there something wrong with this picture of a few leaders in one base deciding what local workany one especially regarding a new comrade whose political self-confidence has just been shaken by a horrific unjust experience that happened with a political intervention but yet is keen to do something to help the part recover from it from the majority of comrades in another base should or should not intervene into to the exclusion of the majority base in that decision??  I’ll leave that up to others to have a think about and come back to that point a little bit down the track.

Section 1.14    Green Left exposes the truth. The accusations to justify the APVO are that of Luke Fomiatti’s and not of my comrades.

126.          Green Left exposed the truth. Luke wrote a rebuttal. Rachel replied. I wrote about the Moscow queers having to fight for their Pride week to be accepted. If you know your Russian political History the four articles all have links in common with this current struggle.

127.          Resistance talk on queer liberation at the camp. I have attached a copy. Kiraz said, "That was pretty shit what Luke did." I had also fought for that last article to be printed about the SRC in response to Luke’s comments. Alex had told me to wait on it being published because he told me Green Left not have any room that week. I said no the truth has got to be published to help us move forward because it is a solution and I remember racing up the stairs. I had never gone over a leaders head before. As a result of that article being published was the fundamental reason why people from the student union realised their error and had asked for Resistance’s return but specifically had requested me. Yet at the time leaders in central along with Rachel had made a decision that I not return to the SRC and that my task was specifically just Resistance and CAAH and I was told not to speak with them anymore and as a result I got blamed for abandoning the student union or for the Resistance intervention being a failure in the student union. A big NDA and a new west base for the party that resulted which stopped the overseas same sex adoption and which also revived the revolutionary struggle in western Sydney that I put my heart and soul into didn’t seem to matter to those who used their power and authority over me to continue to find fault. How can someone move forward if their continued to be expected to pay for the mistakes others have made about them?The person can neither move forwards nor backwards. It’s literally like the movie ground hog day. Reliving the same day over and over and over again.

128.          At the Woolpac hotel one night with comrades, I don't know whether this is true but Ms Evans had revealed she had used a man to get on the pension and with the help of her sister then got rid of him. Today according to her psychologist report she has legitimate reasons, Post traumatic Stress Reaction (It’s not a disorder it’s a double bind reaction that results in the person going into a fight or flight soldier mode to a traumatic situation from the past in the present who usually have photographic memories) that is quite common amongst us revolutionaries. That psychologist wasn't independent it paid by police to do that assessment of her through victims compensation.

129.          On our way home on the train someone finally listen to the struggle for the rights of the white stolen generation that had been gagged by one leader after another. They told me they didn’t have anyone in the party who take care of that. They gave me encouragement to write about it in Green Left weekly. I had a Bart Simpson moment for any leader to have listened to let me help organise an active campaign to help fight for the replacement of the family and gave the teacher a kiss on the cheek. Rachel gave me the guilt fix method for it. The lips is a sexual advance, the cheek is not. I am a person of principles I don’t make sexual advances with a girl unless they ask me first. It too me six months before I said okay to going out with Mel giving Mel a kiss on the lips because I like to get to know a person first and don’t cut in on anyone’s lunch because I’ve been hurt too many times in the past. I didn’t think there was anything wrong with that because I grew up amongst the poorChristian left from the replacement of the family who regularly greet each other or give each other a thankyou with a kiss on the cheek or a hug for a job well done or for a thank you for help with a difficult situation. With the Christian left from poverty its customary in sharing of the peace and to help people recover from alienating situations when you want to thank your replacement mum or your replacement sister or your replacement brother or replacement relative we give each other a hug or a kiss on the cheek and no one ever sees that as a sexual advance. It is particularly done with rape victims and victims of trauma and torture. Sometimes all the politics and organised campaigns in the world even the best of us just need a hug or a kiss on the cheek or a handshake, just human contact with ones people to know that everything is going to be okay because revolutionaries an political activists while our love of the living humanity is not expressed in an ordinary way we are only human.

130.          May to August 2007. I was assigned to strictly Resistance and CAAH work but I wasn't permitted to speak out for the rights of others. I had asked Conner about it. He told me, when Rach thinks I'm ready she will hand us the microphone. Four and a half years on I’m still waiting and yearn and still fighting for the day when there will be no more gag orders to speak out for our people to hear the truth that the Ms Evans power and authority by AVO over me is keeping silent from the people.

131.          At the time I had plans after NDA to go to Adelaide and stay with Mel. Rachel had told me it would leave an enormous hole in her heart to see us go. I told her I’m still in the party but I need a fresh start. Rachel never put in the transfer papers as it wasn’t practical to transfer us to Adelaide at the time as western Sydney comrades and CAAH needed us at the time even just temporarily until I got over the student union. I had never asked for anything for myself in my life and it wasn’t about what the party could do for me but what I could do for the party. I often wonder if I had just gone to Adelaide with Mel back then, then maybe Rachel’s APVO power and authority over me would never have happened and the judicial system and the mental health system interference would never have happened either. Yet leaving was what I had always done in the past and I couldn’t run from something I needed to face and defeat once and for all otherwise I’d be running for the rest of my life. Staying was something new I had never done so the terrain was unfamiliar to me which perhaps explains why Rachel never put in my transfer. 

132.          We organised our first International Day against Homophobia Action (IDAHO)

Section 1.15    The NDA launch

133.          Farida and Rachel came up with the idea of an NDA launch to snap us into action to overcome the enormous cruelty of the SRC by fighting for the rights of others. Rachel took a step back from organising NDA for the first time in order to let other leaders step forward, in this case it had been proposed by the party for Farida and me to step forward. For Rachel to take a step back from queer organising and to concentrate her efforts in western Sydney. They wanted to expand Rachel’s experience beyond the queer struggle while my experience was to get more specific. I remember Rachel would often come into central and say I miss CAAH. I missed the SRC terribly too but I didn’t complain at the time cause Farida and myself were being given a go to show we could do as equally good a job to Rachel on the queer struggle cause a good leader knows when to take a step back to give other leaders a go and to step forward. She told both Farida and me that we are the best organisers she ever had. Yet Rachel didn’t take a step fully back because she had put me under a gag order instead of leaving it up to the collective to decide who had all wanted me to speak at the time but I had to keep telling them Rachel doesn’t reckon I’m ready. The reason Farida and Rachel gave me was an articulation problem. How exactly is one supposed to overcome an articulation problem if their gaged from practicing just after their capacity to communicate has already been alienated and their self-confidence is shaken by an injustice they need to overcome by fighting for the rights of others in organised campaigning even just for a facilitation, chairing or MCing of an event where their role is to just to introduce the event, keep a running order and encourage others to speak and to wrap up the event as well as stop any potential hecklers and saboteurs of the event. I didn’t see any point in being an elected co convenor and instead to just be an ordinary member at the time of CAAH if the people don’t see their elected leaders speak out but no one else stepped forward for the role at the time and because Rachel had wanted me to because she had concerns CAAH wouldn’t have decent elected leader to take care of CAAH. The thing that was not gotten even if I hadn’t been an elected co convenor I still would have organised that NDA exactly the way Farida and myself did because I always saw everyone who comes to an organising meeting to organise political human rights campaigns is a co convenor of the collective and people all elect to take on tasks. A union or a political party is different in that formal roles need to be elected. Other collectives which just organise political human rights campaigns for one human rights struggle like RAC don’t have formal elected roles and there is no elected membership it’s just whoever turns up for no other satisfaction other than fulfilling a duty of helping to organise the campaign to fight for the rights of that human rights strugglepolitically and people compete to take on tasks with the heaviest duties and the greatest responsibilities and the greatest risks. There’s no time to agonise about each other because you are too busy having to compete and to be given a go with a winning revolutionary idea for the next event to be organised that is going to propel the struggle forward for the tasks with the greatest responsibilities and the greatest risks for no other satisfaction than fulfilling any duty to help organise political campaigns to fight for the lives of that human rights struggle, that could be glimpsed as the human of the future. Roles are just elected rotationally per organised event or rally so that everyone gets a go. One rally you might be a secretary or a treasurer, the next you might be a co convenor or the next you might be a spokesperson because everyone who comes to organising meetings of RAC is a co convenor and it eliminates careerism from developing. Anyway that is discussion that CAAH and myself need to have about elected roles.

Section 1.16    Helping Mel overcome the injustice of rape

134.          Mel Hughes my girlfriend was raped by a heterosexual man. I jumped on a plane while sacrificing my rent money. She had a double bind about reporting it. She had overdosed and cut herself. I told her if he was white would you have any hesitation. She said no. I said right. This is not about condemning a person this about stopping rape and rehabilitation. It don’t matter whether their gay straight black or white rape is rape and keeping it in the closet doesn’t help stop rape. Mel agreed and she reported it. We both wrote an article about underfunded hospitals and their treatment of LGBTI people.The article come from what Mel had wanted to say but it wasn’t permitted to address the issue of rape happening to lgbti people and the underfunded health system’s response to it of isolating the victims from their loved ones and preventing them organising an active campaign to politically to stop the injustice that revolutionaries regardless of whether it happens to ourselves or others need to do. Putting people in the mental health and welfare system, giving them a whole heap of pills, blaming the victim by encouraging them to isolate themselves from their people to talk about how they feel with some counsellor who doesn’t understand that the quickest way to help revolutionaries and political activists recover from an injustice is to get them unite with others to focus on an active campaign to stop the injustice to fight for life. You put anyone on the sidelines instead of helping them from their call to fight for life to stop the injustice their just going to dwell over and over and over again. Reliving an experience their prevented by others with power and authority other them to keep them as a helpless victim instead of helping them learn how to defend themselves as well as they would for others in uniting with their people to do anything about it. I know this because they did it with me, they just wanted me to run away and hide and remain scared forced to relive the injustice like groundhog day that will never stop whatever the judicial system, mental health system and the welfare system emphasis keeps teaching victims to isolate themselves. The accused persons, they don’t get any rehabilitation assistance to stop the injustice happening they just get punished and isolated to death the same never learning anything where they either wind up dead, reoffending to get locked up to stop being targeted and never given a second chance in life. There is disciplinary action and then there is punishment. Mel was reluctant to go the police because of what they do to aboriginals and people from poverty in custody in which she feared the person who had done this to her once he had served his time would seek revenge on the white culture as he had mistakenly done with Mel whose always fought to stop aboriginal deaths in custody. Can you imagine her double bind when the people she had organised campaigns with the knowledge and fear that the police will just use it as another weapon to support racist policies of punishing and isolating aboriginal people to death in custody from their people instead of letting one’s own people decide on the disciplinary action and rehabilitation of that person. Very few crimes happen when one’s own people are permitted to trial their own accused and rehabilitate both victims and accused persons. Norway is a classic example of this. People aren’t locked up and punished and victims aren’t taught to run away and hide instead both are rehabilitated within their community. The program is successful in stopping crime, empowering victims and rehabilitating accused persons who are essentially also victims themselves. The real criminals are not each other but a system that protects the interests of the 1% while taking the power away from the 99% to decide what justice and freedom they want. We went back to Sydney and Pip told us not to write articles about it, but to focus on the underfunded health care system, which is what the article ended up being instead of addressing the issue of what the judicial, mental health and welfare system does to address rape. I just said to Mel, I’m sorry, I tried Mel. I even asked for assistance to help us both write a better article to address the politics of the issue but Pip told me Green Left can’t publish it. We can’t send it out until comrades are ready to come out of the closet about stopping injustices which happen to ourselves to help others because their worried about the consequences on contentious and controversial issues.

135.          Mel sent it to the queer Media anyway and it encouraged a lot of queers, aboriginals and people from poverty to speak out about the underfunded systems dealing with injustice which helped with many campaigns in South Australia, but a word of the injustice was never permitted to be printed in Green Left or in any internal publications such as The Activist before it became known as Alliances voices. Alliance Voices is much better than the Activist because it’s meant a public publication where comrade’s voices can get heard to help end closets and work out solutions with political debate without personal attacks which are for clothes and not people so the enemy can’t hurt us. I regular read every issue of Alliance voices with great enthusiasm, speaking of all the things I want to contribute to help in support of every voice in Alliance voices or pulling political tendencies into line who still not get it’s not the politics organising or human solidarity that is the problem it’s the guilt fix and communication and place restrictions and forgetting each other’s history and forgetting were both socialists and human and forgetting the love and empathy of each other’s living humanity when a problem happens when everything else fails to help resolve little problems that become big problems then stop agonising and organise to just call it amnesty and we start again without the need for prison sentences and closets and gag orders. Yet as a result of the gag order since November 2007 I risk being criminally charged dare I contribute which would help. So I keep organising the appeal with the hope any comrade leader with some common sense and an amnesty position will let me give it in person for political rehabilitation instead of personal condemnation for a crime of texting for help to fight for life because I wasn’t allowed to speak in order to address the real issue to work out a solution we can all agree on.    

136.          Resistance conference. Mel and I gave history of queer liberation talk. Gail died. Danni and Simon T for Gail couldn’t even unite for one day so I let them go.

Section 1.17    QC July 2007

137.          Queer collaborations. Rachel didn’t go that year. It was just Farida, Mel and me.  We gave a talk about the proposed overseas same sex adoption ban. It was also at that conference I realised both Mel and me weren’t ready for a sexual partnership because we both had cruelties we had to recover from. So while remaining comrades to this day we remained friends.  I had done wrong by Mel. I had been with an older woman who was just a good listener but turned out wanted more than just talking. I had told the woman I can’t do this with you when I just wanted some advice from an older lesbian in helping my partner recover from her rape. Out of respect for Mel I ended the sexual partnership with the woman and I also ended the sexual partnership with Mel because I didn’t want to be like my parents because I thought if I can’t be faithful in a sexual partnership then I’m not meant to have sexual relations with anyone and remain abstinent. I haven’t had another sexual partnership and refused any advances anyone made with me since Mel and don’t want one because it’s too painful and the AVO didn’t help. Of course I’m still a lesbian, just cause I gave up sex after Mel doesn’t mean one isn’t a lesbian. It helps me organise and fight for equal marriage rights and any campaign in the revolutionary struggle better with no sexin my life. Many lgbti people work together. That’s just my personal choicebecause I’m already getting screwed by Rachel since November 2007 that feels like I’m being raped. I don’t advocate for others to do the same. On the contrary I like being cupid and organising campaigns to encourage other queers to fight for their equal love rights in committed sexual partnerships and also supports queers who want to remain abstinent. I want the right of lgbti people to work together without it being considered a personal sexual advance. That’s what I’ve been fighting for since I met Rachel. I’m sick and tired of lgbti people not having the same equal rightsas our heterosexual counterparts to work together no matter what job lgbti people want to work together in without it being considered or accused as a personal wanted or unwanted sexual advance with each other. No comrade leader, never gave Mel a hard time when suicide and self-harm happened to her as a result of her injustice and let her come back to work and she’s made a full recovery as a result of being allowed to return to work and even got herself a nice girlfriend that treats her good last time I spoke with Mel.

Section 1.18    Prediction listened to: overseas same adoption ban stopped

138.          Two weeks before the NDA the Howard Government announced they were going to ban overseas same sex adoption. The prediction we had made in paragraph 38 was going to come true. Farida came bounding up the stairs at the Chippendale Activist Centre calling my name almost tripping over her wanting to organise a snap action. Rachel told us to wait so we did. Green Left asked us to write an 800 word article on it. So I did and Rachel helped.

Section 1.19    Uncle comrade Duryon

139.          Uncle Duryon he is another ones whose footsteps coming bounding down the Chippendale Activist Centre like a revolutionary expressway every night I will never forget. I often work late just like Duryon because there is never enough time during the day to get revolutionary work done. We both would agree that sometimes comrades not understand why comrades from poverty put so much effort and work long hours because our intelligence simply cause were from poverty is treated as third class citizens. I loved talking to Duryon about Greek Mythology and learning our election strategy.  It was like he just like me could see what they don’t see. I would tell Duryon how I would often find myself having to be the one to always convince comrades. Duryon told me his strategy with comrades when he first adopted the party he didn’t convince comrades, comrades had to convince him.  I don’t know what comrades did with him but I hope it wasn’t this.  I guess it would explain his law degree if it was. Don’t worry Uncle Duryon I haven’t told comrades about your secret tobacco pipe. The Socialist Alliance election strategy is between comrades and me.  I used to think he knew everything like a typical lawyer.  He not know everything but he knows “Mérida” when he sees it just like me.

140.          We did a poster run the week before NDA. CAAH liked to call them come runs because we would make cornflour glue and well it looks like cum when we finished. I had to tell Rachel and Farida to focus on talking about the politics of the NDA.

141.          The police proposed to use APEC police powers to stop our rally so we held an emergency meeting sent out a press release the night before.

Section 1.20    NDA 12 August 2007

142.          Rachel got on the bus with me the morning of the NDA. She noticed my arms but didn’t say anything instead asked me to go and have coffee with her. Rachel got strawberries and lamingtons. Carbs and fruit were important before big rallies. Farida noticed my arms too. Nobody had seen them since it began to happen since the SRC except Mel. I received a lot of blame over the SRC wasn’t permitted to say anything to stop the guilt fix method I was being given over the SRC from the LPF, Allan Priestly, Matt Hawe and Alex who refused to accept Rachel’s stance that the SRC Resistance intervention was no failure.

143.          The rally. It was a huge turnout 3,500 nationwide. Over 1000 alone in Sydney. It was also the first Year we had convinced Mardi Gras to sign on. There was so much media from the communication I had made. We held an adoption ceremony. Kyan was adopted and I cried tears of joy for the replacement family of two mums and a little boy. Rachel said to me during the march. “Calm down Shelly you will give yourself a heart attack.” Cause I was chanting my bloody lungs out. At the end there was an open Mike. Farida went and spoke. Norrie had lined it up with Karl etc. Rachel tried to stop us. I told her I have to. The crowd loved hearing what I had to say. Rachel said I spoke well. The rally was all over the News and the queer press. We had all thanked each other in CAAH. The only comrade who got a thank you for the rally from comrades was from Peter Boyle was Rachel.   We had worked our guts out for that rally yet Farida and I were considered second class citizens to Rachel by our own comrades.

Section 1.21    Rachel’s insistence on storing my stuff at her house

144.          Rachel had insisted on storing my stuff at her house until the fight was won for a Department housing. I had refused because I didn’t want comrade’s welfare and I knew those with dirty gutter minds would jump to the wrong conclusion.Rachel insisted on storing my property out her house because I got kicked out of the refuge for having Mel stay with me because the homophobic and redbaiter flatmate told the refuge who didn’t support homosexual couples.  I had only ever gone to Rachel’s house in the past for posters runs on invite. As soon as I got a house I got my stuff out of there when I was invited to do herself after she got back from Bolivia. We had asked for another house. We had asked for Mel to stay. I had proposed to resign from the name DSP and merge into the Socialist Alliance and it was two years ahead of the party’s time. Rachel had asked me if I was suicidal and told me she was relieved. I didn’t have a death wish otherwise I wouldn’t have called triple zero or Rachel when she told me to but I needed help to stand up to the social cause bastardisation double bind guilt fix method alienation from the capacity to communicate injustice I was receiving that was pushing us there. I never had those thoughts or cut myself in response to being blamed for stopping trauma and torture prior to being put on anti-psychotic medication as the mental health system’s answer to stopping trauma and torturous situations. Rachel had told me that all new comrades go through a crossing over period. I had also told her she reminded me of my first replacement mother Marion because Rachel was always cleaning. She told me comrades told her too. It was a nurse, my gay friend Alison and the books Rachel gave us about the failure of psychiatry who asked us whether suicide or self-harm had ever occurred prior to being put on anti-psychotic medication and said never. They just told me to take drugs to let a heterosexual male basically rape me because apparently being born gay was God’s punishment for being born from adultery and that I needed to be cured of my homosexuality to get better to be accepted. They me to take pills after the SRC. It was Dr Heint who recognised they just wanted to keep a survivor of trauma and torture on pills to weaken our nervous system to keep us a victim with low self-confidence to make us vulnerable to attacks so that when something major happened it resulted in a nervous breakdown.

145.          Mission Australia Wells program and the mental health system just told me it was my fault I didn’t have a house, that the SRC happened or that I got raped or bastardised or red baited or homophobic ally attacked or physically assaulted and tortured. They wouldn’t listen to me to stop using the guilt fix method on me that the party and CAAH.It was seeing comrades and CAAAH cry beginning with Rachel at RPA and Missionat the thought of losing their comrade I rebelled them because they were addressing the social cause. Suicide and self-harm stopped as a result of stopping those pills and the struggle for the rights of the white stolen generation came out of the closet and I began learning how to defeat politically what was denying my human life.

146.          I figured out it was the alienation from the capacity to communicate double bind guilt fix method social cause of bastardisation that caused combined with anti-psych drugs. and the mental health systems incommunicado and solitary confinement didn’t helpbecause it resulted in texting because when I spoke the mental health system just twisted my words. After my life being threatened in Kings cross that resulted in detainment instead of a house I developed a temporary stutter and could barely speak. They let me go as a result of refusing to accept pills and organising thosepatients to fight for their freedom. I didn’t know until I was detained that it had been common practice to detain people from poverty who were just victims of domestic violence, torture and rape situations but had been put in there because they didn’t have anywhere else to go because the mental health system made money out of detaining the poor and labelling the poor sick for doing something to stop rape and violence happening to them. The majority of patients wanted trauma and torture removed from the mental health act. The amount of trans, intersex, white stolen generation, elderly disabled, queer orphans from poverty and even refugees being detained because they were fleeing situations of trauma and torture or had lack of housing was high. The advocacy workers who used to visit once a week had case loads of people who shouldn’t have been scheduled. Electric shock treatment was also still being used. One young 16 year old girl whose name happened to be Rachel had had 12 sessions of electric shock treatment because her parents thought she was sick for refusing to accept their Christian right conservative views.  We managed to get a court order to stop any more shock treatment. I would say to the doctor’s use your common sense. The patients are protesting for their freedom. Yourputting electricity into their brain to cure perfectly understandable and natural reactions to double bind social caused situations. 

Section 1.22    September 2007 APEC & Emilia Lawonski

147.          Emilia met me at central train station and asked me if I was a gayrevolutionary activist and wanted to know if she could join me. I asked her how did she know who I am. She just told she just knew and wanted to be one just like me. I just grinned and took her down to the Resistance Centre and she adopted the party.  Emilia came up with the slogan for the queer bloc “Homophobia AIDS War.” The night before APEC over 500 people turned up to an organising meeting. The anarchists wanted to march up to police lines. The people didn’t. We lost the vote but it turned out as fate would have it. The police were going to block that way anyway. The people won the vote of no marching up to police lines by default. We had a big queer bloc. There were 15000 people. It was incredible. Emilia was so excited about being involved in helping to organise her first action. I have Rachel if I could take a return from leave of absence to go and fight for the house as the party had asked me to do. She reluctantly gave me some time off to go and do it.

148.          Rachel and comrades and CAAH all came to visit the first time. The second time she called me

Section 1.23    Rachel’s references.

149.          November 2007 Rachel gave me two references. One was to get a house and one was for work. I have attached them. I have attached both of them. Here is the one that kept me alive through this.

150.          Rachel E

151.          19/11/2007

152.          to me

153.          Here it is Shell. If they ring me and ask about your financial capabilities (rent paying) I can’t answer those questions about your capability.

154.          __________________________________

155.          To whom it may concern,

156.          Shelly Dahl has been a member of Community Action Against Homophobia (CAAH) for a year and a half.

157.          She was elected co-convenor of CAAH six months ago and during that time organised a large, vibrant Mardi Gras float and helped co-ordinate a National Day of Action - rally- against the same-sex marriage ban. She has been a consistent, enthusiastic member of CAAH and was the backbone to organising the above events. She has been active around refugee solidarity as well.

158.          The national day of action, in particular, put CAAH members under a lot of stress. She managed to organise these events, work with people, and gather support from media and other organisations in a professional manner.

159.          I would be available to give a verbal recommendation to whomever it may concern about Shelly Dahl's capabilities.

160.          Yours sincerely,

161.          Rachel Evans

162.          CAAH Secretary

163.          0403 798 420

164.          Upon release my self-confidence was incredibly low but I just wanted to get back to work. Farida had told me when I was first detained when it comes to life you do anything to fight for it. Rachel had told me that I didn’t have to take the blame anymore because there is no blame in politics. Rachel had let us go with her to visit Ali Humayan a queer refugee. I had apologised for not being perfect. Rachel said it’s okay well guide you. She also asked me who had been telling me I was no good. I told her it was the mental health system, Mission Australia and various individual leaders within our people over the SRC. Rachel my mum was always angry. Brianna my big sister

Section 1.24    Howard’s out, my communication and my replacement family

165.          Rachel let me go help at the elections. Here is the report I was asked to do in order to demonstrate my communication is of a political nature and has not been in violation of the AVO act and it is political and the AVO has been a frame up and homosexual assault and torture of me by AVO. Below is the photos of us with our replacement family from the Socialist Alliance election night party at the Chippendale activist Centre that also reveals the person who proposed the AVOon Rachel Evans power and authority over me that affected all those around us. This was published in Green Left Weekly which I have also attached. I have also attached a copy of my report that Graham Matthews proudly showed to those who doubted us he suggested to read. Just like Graham Matthews said to the LPF photos don’t lie and neither does Green Left Weekly.If the police are arguing people marching in marches and coming to organising meetings and participating in real parliamentary democracy, in real judicial justice and not narrow parliamentary judicial system democracy which makes decisions to the exclusion of all others  together is stalking even though a few leaders don’t want us too then you better start building more jails for all the AVOs with communication and place restrictions from honourable leaders that will be broken because the 99% of people will be following Socialist Alliance and CAAH to win equal justice. Here are the photos. How incredibly scary these revolutionary acts of the love of the living humanity I’ve been fighting for that you deem as acts of stalking, harrassment, intimidation, obsession, sexual advances or any other such nonsense to justify using leaders from our people to impliment AVOs on people fighting for this demonstrated in these photos must be to those who have misjudged and condemned me. Rachel is on the left and myself is on the right behind our banner of freedom with our replacement family.Quick you better go an arrest every lesbian, socialist, political activist and humanin Rachel Evans entire history who has ever contacted or approached or worked with her to protect her “safety” like you arrested queers in the 70s. She might be having one big orgy with all the ALPers she should go back to screwing at her private residence in 67 Station St Newtown instead of her comrade to satisfy whims of  dirty gutter minded heterosexual male cops.

166.          On 11/29/07, Graham Matthews <grahamm@greenleft.org.au> wrote:
> Hi Comrades,

Ø  Rach, Viv and I have done an article for TA on the campaign. Can I
> suggest that I polish Shelley's piece and then forward it to the
> newsletter?

Ø  Comradely,

Ø  Graham

Ø  Shelly Dahl wrote:
>> Correction made on Alex's quote

Ø  > ---------- Forwarded message ----------
>> From: *Shelly Dahl* <shiverstess@gmail.com<mailto:shiverstess@gmail.com>>
>> Date: Nov 29, 2007 11:27 AM
>> Subject: Election Day Summary in Parramatta at Toongabbie Public School
>> To: Graham Matthews <grahamm@greenleft.org.au
>><mailto:grahamm@greenleft.org.au>>, Stewart Woolley <
>>stewartwoolley@gmail.com<mailto:stewartwoolley@gmail.com>>, Rachel
>> evans <grrrach@yahoo.com<mailto:grrrach@yahoo.com>>, Rupen Savoulian
>><rsavoulian@yahoo.com<mailto:rsavoulian@yahoo.com>>

Ø  > Hi all Graham suggested I should write a report about our intervention
>> we had at Toongabbie. While im not clear where we could publish it  3
>> suggestions either in the DSP newsletter or as a PCD or on the web. It
>> will need to be chopped and feel free to add if I have missed anything.

Ø  > Election Day Summary in Parramatta at Toongabbie Public School

Ø  > Shelly Dahl

Ø  > The Socialist Alliance Election Campaign was a huge success in Parramatta in the words of Chris Manserge of forcing Howard 'a tyrant who tried to strip our rights away…into the dustbin where he belongs."

Ø  >> We beat Family First by 100 votes and gained some contacts. Socialist Alliance also had a high reference with people as 'the ones who keepthe bastards honest and fighters of the people in the community.   AtToongabbie Public School it was a great political intervention withStewart Woolly and Tom. We did a big paste up around the school beforewe started in the rain and Stewart had done a massive cork fluting jobduring the night until 4am in the morning! We also sold Green Left toa member from the Socialist Equality Party. We had the majority of thecandidates from The Greens, Liberals, Socialist Equality Party (SEP),ALP, Christian Democratic Party, Family First, The Communist League
>> and Independent Brian Buckley. Warrick as he's known said he knew ofus from Sydney Uni's Manning Bar from all the queer and studentrallies we'd organised. He ended up being so convinced by our politics on environment, workers rights, welfare, queer rights and Venezuela declaring he'd had enough of the insanity politics of his own party!

> The ALP, Greens, SEP and The Christian Democrats interesting and sometimes downright bizarre politics kept us entertained for ten hoursin the wet and humidity. We also took a lead in making decisions andtag tailed it between gates. We convinced many Greens and ALP voterswe are a party of the people and not just a political party who don'twait for elections, but fight injustice with the community every day.

>> Hence our decision not to get our candidate Rach to Toongabbie justbecause all the candidates were suddenly there but for her to stay inParramatta Town Hall ended up proving correct when we clearly beatFamily First who didn't even put up a fight or offer anythingsubstantial forward other than maintaining the precious'nuclearfamily'. Perhaps having a few queer and queer friendly socialists andallies was a fight they knew they'd already lost after witnessing whatwe did to combat the other parties. Aw poor things!

Ø  > This election there was a strong union contingent from Unions NSW on our booth who was campaigning for the ALP, but they didn't all agreewith the ALP's watered down version of Work Choices. Family First andthe other parties didn't really offer anything concrete in terms ofpolicies or campaigns for people's rights. While the Liberals who wereas the Daily Telegraph suggested in reference to John Howard, 'too oldand stinky', they tended to let the Christian Democrats do theirfighting for them.

Ø  > The highlights of the day or quotable conversations were from the ALP,the Christian Democrats and the SEP. Stuart did a fantasticintervention at discrediting the Christian Democrats capitalistreligious mentality. The hot topics were the war on Iraq, theenvironment and Work Choices. They tried to claim there were more jobsunder Work Choices with one of them saying, "There is more jobs. I'vehad five or six jobs since Work Choices came in!" We responded, "Werest our case." On the war in Iraq they tried to reinforce thatAustralia is protecting its security interests and that the people ofIraq can't be trusted to govern themselves. On the question of theenvironment they claimed they wouldn't mind it getting hotter andtried to discredit the Kyoto Protocol as "outdate". We responded thatif the earth got any hotter there would be a massive refugee crisis.Stew's quotes really rocked when he educated them on the environmentwith quotes like, "so you wouldn't mind living under water?"

Ø  > The ALP's Julia Owens was the first we spoke to. When first asked when is Labor going to come out in favour of queer rights or what's next inthe worker's rights campaign she avoided answering by declaring, "I'mnot here to talk about campaigns as I have to talk to more than onevoter." I responded, "off course you do but considering people arevoting today of all days, we're not talking politics today?" Owen'sresponded a flat "No" then looked at Astrid O'Neill Parramatta Greenscandidate who said, "Oh so you're having a rest today?"

> Not about to quit I started talking to O'Neill about her views onqueer as well as workers rights. Then not even 5 minutes later Owenscomes up and starts talking about the Liberals' comments on the rightlife. So I turned and said, "So we're talking politics now?" Afterfurther discussion on the environment, work rights and queer rightswhich Owen's continued to avoid we talked about the importance ofcampaigning and being out in the community. Owen's agreed with us andthe Greens, giving Rachel and the Socialist Alliance crew a good wrapbut then dashed over to her party members. Owen's declared, "Oh don'tworryabout them they're not fighting to win." to which I replied.
>> "We'll at least we fight for the people!" After a final call to getOwen's to give something concrete on queer and work choices. Shestated "Scrap it," inreference to work choices and avoided queer alltogether, then running away! The Greens and us comrades both shook ourheads declaring it’s great to see Labor still avoiding addressing the real issues by running away!

> Combating the strange and insanity politics of the SEP was also afight we won as it was clear they believed the only way to fightcapitalism was to sell out to the bourgeois which was incorrect.  TheSEP was splitting their preferences between Labor, Liberal and the Greens. They justified this by claiming that the only way to fight theCapitalism in Australia is to remain 'neutral' and 'within this system
we have no choice but to give our preferences to the bourgeois.' Weproved them wrong by stating clearly that you have to overthrow themthrough the mass action struggle lead by the proletariat and not 'thebourgeois' as they'd claimed. They of course then tried to claim we'rea bunch of Stalinists who support bourgeois parties. They quickly backed down when proven incorrect and many of their party membersended up deserting and talking to us!

Ø  > Howard's overboard party was also pretty amazing. A few days beforethe election I'd asked a few of the comrades and candidates what wouldbe the first thing they'd do if Socialist Alliance won the election.
>> While it was an abstract question with some quite funny yet interesting responses, the initiated question proved correct by Alex.

Ø  >>  He stood up at the party mentioning the question restating hisresponse as 'he could think of a much better use of air time by announcing a protest demonstration against the government than what Maxine McKee had to say.' After swapping the political contexts of theday and playing the violins at Howard's sore loser sob speech, we all went for a march around the block! With many onlookers joining in ourchants all round Socialist Alliance with Resistance Comrades andallies proved we truly are the party of the people who fight injustice.

167.          Rachel was struggling to let me return to work. She had taken me to go to Villawood Detention Centre to see Ali Humayan. She had asked me whose been telling me that I’m no good because I kept apologising for not being perfect. She had told me don’t worry comrades will guide us. Rachel was really was angry about the mental health system on the drive back that she was biting everyone’s head off who rang on the hand free and mentioned the MH words.

168.          Western Sydney comrades Peter Boyle, Graham Matthews had asked me to come to work and defend the majority and Rachel told me to ignore joining the majority party faction that had been set up temporarily at the time to deal with the LPF. Rachel had also told me not to come because she didn’t think I was ready. Alex had said no one has the right to stop us going to work to defend the majority.  For disobeying Rachel’s order and coming to western Sydney to defend the majority to fight for Socialist alliance’s life Rachel gave me a gag order and Resistance restrictions and western Sydney activist centre restrictions, even though she told me it wasn’t punishment. I spoke the truth but was gaged for going over Rachel’s head to go work to answer the majority call for help to fight for life.